Sunday 22 April 2012

am i worried anytime.....


i woke up today.... let me see what i have today.... a few things to do.... which are required to do to get some larger goals in place.... these larger goals are decided by me for my well being on spiritual, emotional and physical plane... now am i good goal setter and do i have any proven track record of achieving them... this is a separate issue... we will dwell on this little later, if at all required at anytime...  

so i am up and ready to do a few things.... i start brushing my teeth... i also started thinking... about my goals... well is there something wrong here.... am i only person who can decide about my goals... can somebody do a better job than me... that sets me thinking further.... i looked around me... my 17 years old daughter is sleeping blissfully ... can she do it? i do not know whether my wife or my son can do it better either...  for that matter i do not know whether my client, colleagues, friends or government had any clue that what are best goals for me.... on little reflection it becomes very clear to me that all these people have their own goals to follow and with reference to goal setting for me a conflict of interests will stop them from giving me best...  so what is the best way forward.... 

now i am in bath for my hot water bath... i love this daily ritual... it rejuvenates me... and it also sets me to thinking hard... who has my best interests to heart... where am i? 'in your bath of course'... please do not give me silly answers... this is very serious matter... its about my life.... about my goals... so be serious... so where am i? i am in bath, flat, building, street, city, state, country, world (earth), solar system, universe, etc, etc... i hear a voice of protest from you... my answer is as silly as yours... well think again... my answer is not silly for simple reason that after earth, things become a bit complicated metaphorically to explain away just by way of locating my address 'where am i?'.... so where is complication? 

i came out of my bath.... to my dressing room... my clothes are neatly arranged.... with other things like body lotion, talcum powder, etc... i feel a bit obliged that some of my basic needs are always looked after... again i hear protests... come to 'complication' part quickly please.... 'i have work to do to achieve my own goals'...  i know who made my bath, flat, building, street, state, country and world.... but what about earth, solar system, universe... who created these.... are these just matter of facts to be taken for granted or are these to be investigated at deeper level? and till i have positive answers for these questions am i justified in setting goals for myself and rolling action plan to achieve them, without any further thought? now you get the picture.... about complications...

i get into my car... i feel the leather steering wheel under my fingers.... i thank my stars that i have certain luxury in my life.... again i hear protests.... well let me sum it up for you.... exercise your right to set any goals for you... but also keep options open to review them from time to time, while keeping that little curiosity alive for this universe around us.... answers to questions like whether this universe has sprung from nothing without any 'position' of existence of platform to start with or that there was already a 'position' which had power to intervene or create or destroy / recreate this universe as it wishes.... my only humble submission is that please try to get concrete and convincing answers for yourself side by side to setting goals and achieving your goals... believe me when i say that these are not contradictory to each other, but at some point down the road you will find some convergence in both the ideas... and will give you some maneuverability as regards when you should work hard and on which of two ideas.... now my final take....

i come out of my car at parking lot of my office building.... i get to my desk.... my secretary rushes to me with list of appointments for the day.... again i am thankful to little conveniences called loyalty of my employees... 'protest again'.... can't you relax for sometime my friend? any ways here is my final take.... in your journey of asking tough questions like how this universe came to existence, if ever you happen to come to conclusion that there must be some 'power' which has put these things in place and set it rolling.... if and when you are convinced about that then don't you think that you can always approach this 'power' to set goals for you and also give you wisdom and strength to achieve them..... but i will go on to state that while creating this universe the same power had already set achievable goals for you...  and you are gently led to it... i rest my case....

i am at home... had my dinner... i went to sleep... i woke up next day... again i had a few things to do.... but i was relaxed about out come of these few things.... my priorities are changed a bit today.... i am trying to align my goals with the goals of this power for me, which is still in charge.... a smile is coming back on my face... are you smiling, too?